Opening Night

The Opening Night for Monkey Baa’s The Peasant Prince went off like a firecracker, ushering in the beginning of a big journey for this story as we task ourselves with sharing it to the next generation of young Australians.

Li Cunxin was there to offer his misty-eyed congratulations to cast, crew and creatives. The momentousness of what it must be like for him to watch his life story unfold in our intimate Darling Harbour theatre was not lost on anybody in the foyer afterwards, as we gathered around afterwards, beaming yet simultaneously in awe of the man himself.

I was especially anxious that my portrayal of his Niang met his expectations. She is such a central figure in his life – the ever present voice who encouraged him to follow his dreams, the heart behind his search for freedom and inspiration in his pursuit for greatness. Having only been told that she had recently passed away, I hoped that I did- and will continue to do – justice to her memory.

My own mother was my Opening Night guest. Make no mistake, she is no “Niang” to my “Li Cunxin.” Her maternal demands on me were along the lines of obey, achieve, make money, and don’t forget to look after me with the money you make. Still, I wanted her to be there on this night of story that traces its roots back to the land of our ancestry. Where the hunger and hardship that she was taught to avoid her whole life pervades like thick dust. Where the two of us recognise each other in the telling and receiving as mother and child because it is ultimately about the redemptive love of family. The story is a bridge across the many things that have divided us because I am able to show her what will always keep us connected propels me forward in the imaginative act of someone else’s story. Despite our fractures, her love continues to feed me.

PP Opening Night with Mum




Australian Writers Week: the last leg

The first thing you notice about Beijing is the smog. Within minutes of landing, my whole body was working a bit harder just to breathe. The Australian Embassy staffer who had been with me since Mongolia gave me the stats: the day registered a 160 reading on the Air Quality Index on her Iphone. “What does that mean?” I asked. “It’s really not too bad. The World Health Organization’s recommended level is 50.”She smiled at my startled face. “Considering we hit over 700 at the beginning of the year, 160 really isn’t too bad.”

I had arrived in Beijing for the final leg of Australian Writers Week 2014, organized every year by the Embassy. Deigned as a celebration of contemporary Australian literature, and an opportunity to explore cross-cultural perspectives, I was about to meet the other eight authors selected to represent this slice of our national soundbite: magazine contributor and author Benjamin Law; stand-up comedian and author Oliver Phommavanh; young adult fiction writer Leanne Hall; investigative journalist Pamela Williams; writer and illustrator Gabrielle Wang; children’s writer Alison Lloyd; Iranian-Australian writer Ali Alizadeh; and novelist Dominique Wilson. Each writer had been given a different tour schedule –ricocheting to different parts of the country- and culminating in the climax of official duties that lay ahead in this final week in the smoggy but impressive capital.

Although united by the general theme of “Asian-Australian writing”, we were distinct in voice and practice. Being the only non-published writer (and feeling nebulously defined so) I felt embraced by this temporarily floating community. Each of our stories were held under the gaze of an interested but foreign lens in the overlap between politics and culture, bringing our essentially private acts of writing together into an embodied and public space. Being the performer in the group, I had my schtick down pat – more than comfortable with the extra layer of fiction the construct of performance provides to a set of words and ideas. But the trouble with speaking autobiographically is that it wrestles with the fluidity of personal memory to work and being back in China- and having just been in Shanghai, the theatre of my most dramatic recollections- the past and the present were colliding in a way that my pre-packaged story could no longer accommodate. As I searched for the truth in each moment of its re-telling, I realized that my research of being back was shifting –ever so slightly – the way I remember.

“Writing is like carpentry.” the Pakistani writer H.M. Naqvi told us that week – the grunt work of cutting, building and assembling blocks of information into something purposeful. And so, as I roll up my sleeves and get back to work, I’ve got my eyes firmly fixed on a changing landscape: my family history is no victim narrative, but one of triumph through adversity; my marriage may have been shipwrecked, but an indomitable friendship survives; and China in 2014 isn’t quite the same as China in 2008, though some things remain the same. It’s still the perfect backdrop of hedonism mixed with officialdom: where else would I have been met actress Bai Ling, pioneer of Asian erotic journalism (a.k.a. the first Asian woman to appear on the cover of Playboy) and Australia’s ex PM on the same trip?